Today

It is the day before fourth of july, one of my favorite holidays, we all dress the same get a picture taken and talk about how great our country used to be and how to fix it. I am a little depressed today....feeling a little sorry for myself why can't I have a normal life with a normal husband is this my testimony? am I supposed to help people struggling with addiction to pornography? Do I stick this out and fulfill my commitment to God? I had a beautiful wedding and remember speaking my vows and being so proud to be his wife and so proud to have God watching over our marriage.........I promised to be Jeremiah's wife in front of God thats kinda weighing heavy on me today......even though I hate him God I have to put on a show or what? I don't know maybe I am to logical because statistically if I stay in this marriage he will do it again and again and it will get worse I may get a disease or worse.......... my kids will have keep seeing me upset......... I don't know I want release I can't wait to go to work tonight I might sleep at Tiffany's he slept here last night and respected my boundaries and stayed away, I didn't even see him.