can counseling help

I don't know if counseling can help, I am skeptical and hopefull, is this going to be my cross to bear, I keep praying for God to release me........from my marriage to say it's okay to leave it in the dust.......... If I walk away and it's against God it is ME breaking the marriage covenant, but hasn't my husband already broken it again and again and again? I can't feel God right now I feel dirty, ugly and a little depressed at best. I don't want to be married tto someone who can look me in the face and lie........this man doesn't bat an eye.... I know him so well and I see right through it. I just pray for release