WHY

Why is he such a jerk, he is "not accountable" in his opinion and a "victim of his addiction" he makes me want to throw up. I am so sick of this junk...........I am really starting to wish I never met him and that is sad for me ......I have alot of anger still and just want something healthy for myself and my kids ...I dont know I just want somebody to tell me i dont have to stay with this jerk.